It’s never too late

Life… what’s life for you ? How can you describe your life when you even forgot some idea how you should be proud with your life. But somehow, life can not be predicted, it is like a pinball, sometimes you goes up, sometimes, you stuck in some dilemma and sometimes, you get a jackpots full of joy. Yeah, life is like that.

Right now, I try to enjoy my life. Even it is not kind of life that I want. But it was probably the best moment for me to learn, listen, and patient.

Life would never be a waste. You can be somebody special for anybody. For family, friends, or even couple. But when the life goes down, you will feel like world has abandoned you. Each time you meet stranger, you feel like everybody judging of who you are and what have you done.

People made a mistake to learn from it. It is hurt, stupid, ridiculous, and totally painful.  Sometimes we even should learn more than once. That is the moment of failed in your life.

And then what next ? Hiding… blame others… is not a good following action. As I saw Nicole Kidman on Oprah, she told everybody proudly, she is not a quitter. She loves to confront the problem even though sometimes it takes tears, heart, stress, brain, but she knew that she has to confront it.

After that show, I got what I need to do. I know that I should learn from my life until this time. Thinking and not regret, ready to confront my problem and other people and speak loudly that I am here.. exist.. beautiful.. and worthy.

We never begin with success, we would always begin with failure. I shouldn’t deny my mistakes so that others could learn from me, cause I want to learn from them too.

I realize that is not how we have to love ourselves or how we need to proud of who we are, but how we could  love all  the process that happen on us. How is the process could change and shaping us into a better person.

I learnt that I cannot fight the process, than I should receive it and embrace it.

Ladies, have you wondering why some of you can go to mall and shopping without need a reason ? yes, because we become compulsive and not impulsive anymore. It’s like me. Actually I can go to Department Store and see all of thing looks blink blink while my credit card on my purse starti to shaking waiting to go to cashier. With this writing, I would like to share to feeling and the signs that you are one of the compulsive shopper.

First, you will think that any other big city and other country will be great place because you can buy something or spend some money to buy labels. Yes of course we would enjoy the scenery, so calming and relaxing. But As compulsive shopper, we will feel calming and warmer in heart each time we go into store and find something interesting to buy. Haha…

Second, we always find needs to buy something. You can buy another pink lipstick with different labels while you still have two in your purse. Or you need to buy the black stiletto because the heels are shorter than you have right now. While watching black stiletto suddenly your eyes stuck with the nice boho bag with  satin motif. Ahaa…

Third, you always forgot the price of stuff that you’ve just bought out from store. Or you just never care or think about the price at all. Well, actually it happens really often. So when another person saw it and ask how much did u pay for it ? Suddenly you would be gone blank.

Fourth, It is really dangerous to stay close with the sales staff, because you are easy to be persuaded by them to buy. You are easy to receive compliment and deceived by mirror around you plus the smile from sales staff. You really put your trust because they said it looks good on you.

Fifth, you go to mall more than three times a week. With or without discount, you still carry big pride to buy something. You don’t even care about the price!!

Well, see… shopping is part of an addicted habit which can drag you into poverty because of stupid reason. hehehe….

Have you watched the new movie of Will Smith, Seven Pounds. It is a very brave action of a man. The true hero for some people. It is a really good movie. After watched it, the question just come up into the surface. Have we ever done for somebody ?

I know the movie is about true heroes who brave to sacrifice his precious life. But let us talk about something lighter. About how to give in… It’s pretty hard too aren’t they ?

We always forgot how we’d treat people, but we would never forgot how are people treat us. Somehow the law of cause and effect shouting to another. Many people always told us to give in for good cause it will back to us more than we let go. But is it true ? When do we know that the time we give in would be better for us ?

Questioning the truth is the habit of human. We cannot believe a plain explanation and always try to dig deeper for truth. Why we have no brave to take the simple explanation like that while the truth is like that, so simple.

We give something then we have nothing. That’s it. But this is an earth with complex population and the modern civilization. We will always have another option to choose isn’t it. We cannot forget that human never ever feel satisfied with what they already had.

If someone raise his hand and ask, once again unsatisfied feeling, why we should give in if that would cost us more ? We are not an angel, we give what we could give, we are just thing from blood and flesh, but live. Brave cannot measure by how big u could give in and then count it on each step and recall that person again about how good you are to them. But give in is about to let go an important thing while we still have desire to have it, but we know there is someone out there needs more then we are. We have to give it and let go.

Feel the relieve and be better person. Life isn’t always about ego, yes it is always about survive, but sometimes we need to learn to stop and change another direction.